Returned back from Gili Trawangan yesterday, had 5 days together with Darsi Miranti, looks like the female conveyor belt running through my life is on pause for the moment, which hopefully will come to a standstill while I get to know and spend more time with Miranti…

Spoke to my brother Nathan in Thailand today and he alongside a few friends have informed me that lately my blog is reading like a continuous stream of different women coming and going in and out of my life, airport rendezvous here and there blah blah with me being a womaniser somewhere in the middle. I have also had a few comments from the uk it has been reading like a Mills and Boon Novel.

Ok here goes i will offer  a brief explaination. One year ago tomorrow I left the Uk on a journey into the unknown to Indonesia, I took a passport, a debit card, camera equipment, malaria tablets and an open mind and an open heart to all that was to come my way. I ended up in many different airports, cities and surf breaks, numerous restaurants, hotels, bars and clubs. I left the Uk as a single person and I was aiming to follow my heart. As a result I have met many other people also following their hearts and living their dreams, communication in such situations is often open, caring and honest. Many of the barriers people hide behind during normal daily routine existence are non existent. Strong experiences and bonds are easily created in this emotional environment, however I know and understand people are travelling, many are not in a final destination so many of my encounters have been brief. Especially with women. I have met wonderful inspiring women and if situations would have allowed I could easily have spent more time with all/ any one of them and developed stronger emotional bonds. However geographical circumstances and individual paths through life so far have not delivered such circumstances. I am living as a stream flowing through the rocks, just following a path that life takes me on. I have remained in contact with many people I have met and they have firmly planted roots in my heart. Physical experiences through my life are important to me, surfing, skateboarding, gymnastics, bmx, motocross, making love, having sex,.. all of them are situations which make me come alive, make my heart beat faster. All carry risks which I always assess in advance and calculate whether or not I am prepared to take them..

A barreling wave broke my friends neck in Panama on a shallow sand bottom and a different one broke Christophe Frats  neck at Lakey Peak Sumbawa last feb, there is always a risk for the rewards life has to offer ( see Lakey Peak Section on right side menu for more info

Eugen Tollemache Broken Neck

Christophe Frat and Eugene Tollemache Lakey Peak 2009

.,  .Motocross paralyses many people at the top of their game my friend Jamie Squibb damaged his spleen this year backflipping a 75ft gap on his fmx bike. skateboarding and bmx has put me in hospital most of the adult years of my life. Working on my land has cut my palms and shins to shreds and each cut has become a puss filled sore lasting two weeks. Even surfing safely a person experiences reef cuts which always develop into sea ulcers  quickly. Life for me is always been about taking risks, assessing risks and enjoying the rewards that follow, My most important lessons and education has been learning from the pains and mishaps along the way. Pain is a living proof that you are live and feel alive, the ability to feel has always been my route to the truth. If I follow what I feel in my heart and combine my decision making process with all the information I have gathered in my head so far, I can make decisions with a clear conscience. This clear conscience has been a good thing to live with..

The greatest risks I have taken always involve my heart, the very core of me and I have found to offer it to other people piece by piece brings some of life’s greatest rewards. However the price is high when my heart is injured and love for all its rewards has the greatest price to pay when it comes and goes. When traveling love comes in different ways and different experiences, it is delivered in brief encounters, small moments that alone do not appear to be a lifelong relationship. However all these moments amount to something quite wonderful when they are totaled and added up. For now that is my life and one that  I am very grateful and appreciative of. I aim to value all who pass through for the moments where we have shared, loved and learnt together. I have  moments that will last in my memory forever now, these experiences have left me feeling fully filled and satisfied no matter how brief.

If my life today was a  book then it most definitely would have a contents page, that is my life now, full of content and content, the root of contentment. Yes “Content” I know how it feels, no longer frustrated and empty, feeling unsatisfied and dreaming, my life has become a dream come true every day I step into its direction. I just thank God for every woman that has passed through this year, every city I have visited, every wave I have ridden, every flavour I have tasted every sunset I have witnessed. I stepped into my dream with an open mind and open heart and met others who had too. I have discovered love is experienced through giving and sharing and that has been all I aim to do give and share,  my blog is just one small way of sharing this experience with anybody who wants to know, its is that simple I  am just keeping an open diary along the way..

Ok 9 trucks  full of rocks have arrived for retaining walls today, so that is this weeks project. Woke up feeling odd this morning, somewhat at a loss having spent 5 intimate days with Darsi Miranti on paradise Island again,  a mix of emotions spinning inside but I remembered later that this week happens to be the Anniversary of when my Dad hung himself about 12 years ago, and I think my spirit reminds of this inside, so it’s an emotional time subconciously for me at the moment although all is going well on the surface…..